“Yes. Porn video I just couldn’t get the knot right tonight, even though I tie one every day of the week, every week of the year. When I looked up, I looked a little higher, to the ceiling, and then beyond, and, hugging the kids, I hoped that Becca was watching and approving. One recurring theme in comments on the first posting was that I seemed to end it abruptly, perhaps ran out of time. I looked further up and saw Becca’s face. For work. Kidding. We said we were open to pretty much anything. “Amanda,” I said, tentatively, not wanting to scare her. Milla soon joined us, helping Amanda. I called again later in the evening when I didn’t get a callback, and again got voicemail. If it wasn’t work, it was the kids. My stomach hurts, so that’s probably what it is.










